It’s been a while since I posted. I was really giving my head and heart some time to process things.
A lot has happened since I last wrote a post. Let’s see there’s this:
Yep! That’s right. We are expecting another baby in February! It was a shock to say the least. After trying for over a year and then just giving up, who would have thought that we would randomly and without any medical help – get pregnant!?! I was in shock. I found out after starting a HCG diet. It took me a good week to believe it. In fact, I’d say that I didn’t really believe it until I saw the ultrasound and heard the heartbeat. It still feels surreal. We’ll see baby #4 again next Friday. Maybe seeing him/her again will make it feel more real. I told Douglas the other day that we are a big party all on our own! When we go to restaurants now, we’ll be a big party and it will just be our family! Crazy.
In adoption news. On the day we found out I am pregnant, about thirty minutes later actually, we got the call from our social worker that our license has been approved to foster/adopt. We are now licensed for two children aged 0-21. Being pregnant complicates things. In our state you can only have five children in the home to do foster/adoption. So, after baby #4 arrives, that means we’ll only have room for one foster child. We’ve told our new worker (whom I think I’m really going to like) that we will wait until after the baby to accept a placement. That will give us time to adjust to being a family of six before we take on another child.
Friends told me when we started this process that both were going to happen. They predicted that I’d end up adopting and then get pregnant, not that I’d get pregnant before we’d adopt. I guess in a way they were still right. The day we found out was so overwhelming and exciting. There really aren’t words.
We are starting to look at houses. We all fit in ours but with the kids getting older we are feeling the need to stretch out. I’m not sure if that will happen soon or if we’ll wait a couple years so we can pay down some debt, but a bigger house with more square footage is definitely in our future.
So, I guess at least until February, I’ll use this blog to write about the pregnancy and adding another biological child to the family. And then, we’ll get back to talking about adding a foster child to the mix. God has big plans for us – maybe bigger than we even realized. I just have to trust that this is all his plan and that we’ll end up with the children He has chosen for us.